Starting out... i've been through my christian walk of six years now... i've born fruit of the spirit and know that the Father is with me... i don't claim to have some super wisdom of ministry, i'll be the first to say i'm still too young, but what i know is the Lord has His hand over what He's given me. He has allowed me to struggle to reach a plateau of intimacy that is ever-deep... i praise Him for the equipping i've received, and am looking forward to the continuation of what He has in-store for me!
From teaching the word to leading the body in worship, i'm an example to the diverse ministry one can partake in. But the horrid truth to being involved in ministry is the greater responsibility one will have when standing before the Father. i tremble to think how many people i've "un-lead" to the Lord... i'd have to answer for them all... i know some of my journey has been "flesh-traveled" instead of "spirit-led". But i know the Lord is faithful and just. i just pray i'm given over to the Spirit and that through living His walk will allow for the rest of my life to perfection in His Spirit.
i don't deserve anything that the Lord has done for me... i realistically would only be satisfied to know i've attained salvation through Jesus... but through grace... through God's abundant and ever-filling mercy, i'm given opportunity to be as the disciples; to live with the Messiah... to partake in fellowship and join in the glorious revealing of Jesus to us personally. i only dream of the day, when my flesh is finally crucified to the cross of Christ, and i'm transformed to a vehicle for the Lord to pour out freely.
But my flesh is fallow ground... my pride, my lusts, my weak spirit... keeps me reliant of the Father for everything... and as much as one needs to be kept as a sheep disciplined... i'm always seeking after the Father... making sure my heart is His heart... my will conformed to His will... but for the time being... i'm placed in a location... surrounded by Fallow Ground... a place i know the Lord only desires to use me mightily... i echo the words in my heart, "bloom where you are planted!"
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