Brokenness

there is a lot to the word brokenness... from the daily struggle to find out just who we are, to the embarrassing truths that lie within each stone we've placed upon our walls that shelter us from the outside world, brokenness is all but intrusive... its because of it that we can be used to our utmost... it causes one to truly gain an understanding to the 'what's' and 'why's' in our lives towards things outside of 'us'. to stir us to draw more closer and rely more dependently upon the Father.

without the effects of this simple word, one exists to pleasure one's mind and body; summed up in one word... our flesh! a rabbit trail that leads to a dimension of truth where it's all about 'you'! our ministry to the Father is plagued with thoughts of 'our' desires, 'our' needs, 'our' wants if you will... minus brokenness in our lives equals a submission to flesh... a place where pride covers all thoughts... obedience isn't in the dictionary... meekness, which is power, becomes to no avail... all that remains in this life: a wanting to do the will of the Father shrouded by a constant anxiety that we feel, knowing that we aren't being used to our full potential!

but a life yielded to brokenness is bliss! as much as our flesh hates being stuck in a place of embarrassment... we need to know that the end result of us standing 'naked' before the Lord will produce a more sweet fellowship, a depth of intimacy that we as humans can never understand. because of the openness, because of our being honest, the Father see's us and heeds the prayers of the diligent seeker; anointing them with a fruit of the spirit that we cannot produce outside of the Father, self-control... oh the glory of the Father... to allow someone, unworthy, to a state of righteousness, unattainable... then gracing them to further their devotion to the Lord... because brokenness isn't a one time experience... every time we encounter the Living God, whether in worship or service or seeking, we remember how 'naked' we were before Him, and desire to be that honest with Him once again! it's own adrenaline rush if you will...

if you haven't been broken... if you haven't sought the Father in His throne room to be awe'd and amazed at His justification, may i be truthful and say, 'You don't KNOW God!' you're ministry, although you bare fruit (in man's eyes), you're not being used to your maximum... i speak from experience... only this past year or so have i understood, 'i NEED to be broken!' and let me submit to you, there isn't any other place i'd rather be... than before the Father, upon the brazen alter... being a burnt offering... offering my sweet aroma to the Lord... at His feet, my flesh crucified...