i just want to start by saying, "i'm so tired!" from the fast-paced ending hours of work, to just me wanting to get blessed by company and brothers so dear... i'm running on solely the Spirit... and it shows... confirmation after confirmation... man, am i blessed to be such a blessing to other people just by simply living the creed of a Christian, 'love others as yourself'...
however tough the request... or demanding the deed... my life prides itself in the Father! its by Him, through Him, and for Him... and He alone brings glory to His name... check this out... "for His name's sake" as David wrote in the culturally known Psalm 23... i'm used... i'm given... i'm taken advantage of... i'm wrung out... i'm dried up... i'm overflowing... i'm saturated... i'm blessed... for His name's sake...
to put my life into perspective... i'm 22 years old... i'm not quite yet ready to be on my own... i have bills and debt that i need to mend... i've been in ministry for some time now... 6 years saved... 5 years serving... i've seen the Father move... i've had the Spirit fall on me, received vision... seen healing... am experiencing intimacy... but it's nothing... nothing compared to what the church in Acts experienced... i have a steady job... promoted to a position of responsibility... and from what i see and hear... i've been doing a rather okay job... the Lord has blessed me with a voice for worship... to praise His name as loudly or as highly as i can possibly sing... i remain as Paul has desired... single... and i glory in the Father because of it...
but regardless of what i can say... regardless of how i am... no matter what i do... He will glorify Himself in me... amen... His name shall be magnified through the doubt... seen faithful through the struggles... remains fruitful even in my disobedience... man... how does one think that through? knowing that no matter what, God desires to see Himself edified in our mortal bodies... as unworthy as i am... i can't help but remain joyful... because as i seek Him... as i draw closer into the throne room of Christ... when i become poor in spirit... i find myself in Him... i find myself in Him... i find myself in Him! this vessel is solely the Lord's... even through the flesh... He will know me so well... and i will know my Father's voice so comfortably, that when He places in my path the temptation... when He brings me through the miry pit... when i find myself in a rut of immense frustration and sorrow... I AM HIS... and when He desire's to use someone... when He cries from His throne room, "who will go for us?" "whom shall we send?" ... He would reply in the same breath... bern... for I KNOW him... and in my sin... when He shouts the battle cry to take up arms... and i'm found asleep... He will raise me from the valley of dry bones... FOR HIS NAME SAKE!!!
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