so the ever so clear whisper that the Lord continues to utter into my ears is that of my calling... i'm in leadership here at my church... and as i am in this position, i am a blessing to those around me... woe is me... i truly am a man borne of uncleanness... and i continue in this ever disgusting flesh that i call my body... ever plagued with sorrows and griefs, temptation and course jesting... and yet, i'm called... woe is me... i can only attribute this walk and it's blessings to the Christ, my Messiah and God... i shouldn't be allowed to help anyone... i fail people constantly... i'm not a man of my word... i'm, by no means, looking of the part... you know what i say? ... Praise the Lord...
i'm reminded of Israel's picking of a king... how the people looked to the man who stood out... the man a foot and shoulder above all other men, a man who won the hearts of many... but how the Father chose that of David... a young man of no promise, a man whom had no impact to this world but yet spent the most of his young career seeking that of the face of God... fast forward two or three thousand years, to a time where the Lord has yet to speak to His ever rebellious peoples... the pharisee's and scribes looked to power for the Messiah, they desired their king once again... but the Father deployed His best to save... a man of sound doctrine and counsel, a righteous and holy man who (once again) knew the Father face to face... starting to sound familiar?
to be called... to be chosen to serve... but most importantly to be called to lead... a gift that is possessed by disciple'ers, teachers, and pastors... a hefty reward, a two edged sword bearing grand accomplishments and achievements as far as bearing fruit... but to placed under such scrutiny, to be looked up to as you try to lower yourself lower and lower into the dust on the ground... this is what i desire... call me a fool... label me too zealous... be cautious and skeptical... just keep me in prayer as i take this natural gift of mine and explore it to the fullest and glorify my God...
(sorry this one's abrupt and my not even flow... im just sooo tired and i need sleep so night!)
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